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为什么做技术?想到大学时期,在关于工作的遐想中,程序员这个职业从来都没有出现过。一直到临近毕业,发现败的一塌糊涂的自己,已经没有多少选择的权利。13年的夏天里,自己提着行李在火车上站了十二个小时,第一次踩在这个城市的土地上,跟斌在五环外的小店里吃第一顿饭,除了重新开始,已经什么都不愿意想。

从用java写了第一个hello world,一张白纸上,现在已经满满的都是代码。做技术是一件充满成就感而又包含挫败感的事情。

长大以后,自己是已经很难再单纯的出于热爱而去做事了。中学时可以为了打一场篮球,骑车逛遍整个县城的篮球场,回家精疲力尽躺在床上还要回味刚刚那个进球;可以为了能提前买到一张杰伦的专辑,花一整天的时间找遍所有的影像店。而现在,篮球赛只愿意看最后三分钟,一支歌听不到十遍就会删。小时候总是幻想大学的生活,不再被学校、父母束缚。读了大学以后又总是幻想工作以后的生活,看到喜欢的篮球鞋可以买买买,而到了工作之后却又想回到从前的生活。未来总会发生,过去却回不去。

消极情绪就像是病毒感冒一样,越是在意它,病痛越是被放大。


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